Excerpt from the story '48,000 Years'
Takes place after Atlantis has returned to Earth.
There may have been a blow job, a massage or two over the years... definitely a lot of closeness, even cuddling at times.
But John and Rodney have not actually had sex since since they left Antarctica. And things were very different then. John wanted to be a good lover, but his fears about being with another man made him distant and emotionally unavailable for anything other then strictly sexual encounters.
Until that one night, he had the courage to come back for something more. And that was when he saw McKay, holding himself and crying on the shower floor. Horrified with the thought that he had done something to hurt the other man, he had ducked out before McKay could see him, telling himself he could never, ever do this again.
That hadn't stopped him from falling in love with Rodney though. Now, as he
nurses Rodney back to health from a traumatic ordeal, John tries to show him how much he has always loved him.