21 Jan 2008
John and Rodney in the first year of the expedition. Sometimes love is a journey, sometimes it's a gantlet, and sometimes it's a baptism by fire.
Updated: 08 Sep 2005; Published: 07 Nov 2004
Ohh, what a lovely start! Plus the fact that the title implies there will be more encounters on balconies, which I love.
So few stories delve into the fact that John really didn't want to go, and Rodney probably didn't hesitate, as you portray. Excellent job, and well done on the reactions--John really would tease like that, and Rodney really would take it the wrong way.
Oh, this is so lovely, and I feel trite saying it but, it IS, and the speech Rodney gives at John's bedside is so honest and heartfelt, it was very touching. I really like how you paint these vivid images so that your readers can absolutely see what you see when you write it.
You've got a great gift for that, like word snapshots.
This was fantastic in the lightning flashes of imagery, such expert work! Pounding the ow all in one big pile but shining the sun on it, too. I'd say more, but ow, and NEXT!
Chapter 4: Acts of Enormity
I loved the fight. LOVED. I love that Rodney is a good fighter, that he *got away from two people trying to hold him back* and the conversation in the holding cells was just... They don't do anything by halves, and I love that you don't compromise that for a second, even when John is trying to convince Rodney that he's what John wants. Because, you CAN'T promise shit like that, you can't, it doesn't work, and it messes things up even when it's NOT said in a really tense situation. Case in point--my dad once told me that if I was ever in a situation where I was uncomfortable and I was away from home, I could call and he'd come get me, no questions asked. It was because he wanted me to feel like I could call him if I were out with friends and upset, but after he died, it really HURT that he couldn't come get me. He'd died, but I was so mad that he'd promised that and was wrong.
Anyway, I also love the emotional connection I've gotten with this story. I'm all conflicted inside and while I already was, I think some of it is from the story ;) In a good, resonating with the text sort of way, of course!
Chapter 5: Some Kind of Truth
They're all lost in the woods. The difference is, he's at home there.
(Thanks to Meyerlemon, Danvers, and Carolyn Claire for the betas!)
Updated: 03 Jul 2005; Published: 03 Jul 2005
This is wild and wonderful and sad all rolled into one. I really love the conversation between Teyla and Rodney about their expectations, especially when Rodney says "Yes, because that's an adjective that describes me" -- it was SO *him* and a delightful moment that really shone a light on what he might really be like in bed.
Thank you for writing!
Author's Response: Thank you! I\'m so glad you enjoyed it, both the happy and the sad parts. That conversation was really key to me. I\'m glad it was for you, too.
He had the memories of a life he'd been forced out of and the reality of a life he didn't want.
(Implied non-con. There is no written rape scenes, though it is spoken of. There are some parts where it is all but shown, so be warned.)
Updated: 23 Sep 2005; Published: 23 Sep 2005
A painful but rewarding read! I really appreciate that you didn't end it with 'healing sex' or something that would have cheapened the entire story.
John Sheppard and Rodney McKay's friendship undergoes some radical changes after contact with Earth is reestablished. Spoilers through Trinity.
Updated: 11 Nov 2005; Published: 10 Nov 2005
This was recced to me on lj's sgagenrefinders and it's an AMAZING gem! I'm completely delighted to read this first chapter, and to see how long it is just makes me grin from ear to ear!
The subtle hints between John and Rodney are fantastic as a set up for John to fall, and I absolutely adore the way you've characterized their friendship here. Your writing had me on tenterhooks for Rodney more than once, but each time, your John smoothed that over with ease, and all in character, imo. I'm looking forward to the rest!
"Rocket science and quantum physics were considered the most difficult, incomprehensible fields of study, so, naturally enough, his ego would demand that he master both."
I can so relate to this sentiment, though I don't have the strength of character Rodney does! This is one of the most articulate descriptions of him I've ever read, excellent work! Also, I HAVE to comment on your brilliant ability to view the world from your PoV character--Rodney thinking about how sick he is from the radiation (when we all know he's probably not actually sick yet--or, rather, it's probably psychosomatic) is just perfect, and hardly any authors manage this clarity of PoV.
I really enjoyed the way John came to talk to Rodney after they got back from the planet in 'Runner,' though I might have known it would blow up in their faces! The way Rodney's capable of shocking John is simply delicious!
"Rodney sighed. "I think you're my friend and that you're curious, but that's not the same as wanting me. John, you're my ferris wheel. You're my fast car. I want to be those things to you. I think I deserve to be wanted. At least a little.""
Great line. That kiss was spectacularly hot, all the more so because of how chaste it was. My only complaint is the phrase 'kiddy ride' kind of made me feel a bit odd, considering the mental place I was at (right there with Rodney, heh) after what John did.
While I'm definitely enjoying the story, I'm starting to waver on the characterizations a bit. It's fine if I picture it as kind of an parallel universe, but I do think Rodney is very weak here, and it kind of makes me sad for the character. John also seems a bit too open, but I could buy that as an alternate John, if that makes sense. As a separate universe though, kind of like the version of McKay where he depends more on his insecurities, it works. Though I wonder if maybe you're setting them up to be a kind of a dominant (john)/submissive (rodney) kind of thing?
John talks a lot about not hurting Rodney, and I can only hope that this isn't a setup for just that situation!
Good chapter, hot sex, sweet relationship stuff :)
Five ways they tell someone about their relationship.
Updated: 15 Feb 2006; Published: 15 Feb 2006
"I have a scientist too..." Awww that was a great story! I loved Parrish's hand on Lorne's hair, and how far Elizabeth would go to protect John. I was a bit thrown by the Ronon segment as it seemed to come from nowhere in relation to the previous segment (and didn't quite explain whose PoV it was at first), but it was funny as well.
Summary: "If you really want me to get into the Spirit of Christmas, here's a list."
Updated: 29 Dec 2006; Published: 29 Dec 2006
LOL the ending! ahahaha.
This was so sweet and hilarious and sexy, thanks so much for writing it! It really cheered me up.
Author's Response: Thank you :)
Summary: It was ridiculous because he had even more to lose now, but John had never felt more secure in his life.
Updated: 23 Apr 2007; Published: 23 Apr 2007
Ohh, silence kink AND semi-public! The footsteps... nrrrghhh. Genius. Loved it!
Rod returns home after the events in "McKay and Mrs. Miller."
Updated: 19 Jul 2007; Published: 19 Jul 2007
Rod's pretty sure Rodney didn't date Terese. She's the person who taught Rod everything he knows about kindness, compassion, understanding. She taught Rod about people, and Rod has no idea what he taught her. Not to love geniuses, maybe.
This was so bittersweet and oh, so very Rod! I love how you're able to characterize both of these guys perfectly with only one episode and casual mentions of behavior patterns to go on.
His John has different walls, though.
"This is it, isn't it?"
Oh, oh WOW. Fantastic story, and one of the kinds of stories where you really, really feel like it's from the brain of the PoV character. The perspectives of everything are ever so slightly different, and it only gets better on the re-read.
Six interconnected drabbles about John, Rodney and sex.
Updated: 03 Aug 2007; Published: 03 Aug 2007
I usually shy away from drabble series, sure that I'd be dissatisfied with the result, but these are everything drabbles should be, and I salute you.
This is my project for mini_nanowrimo 2007. It's a new fic, ficlet or drabble every day, all episode related, of the growing relationship between John and Rodney. Each day will be added as a new chapter. Ratings are G - NC-17 and will be noted in each chapter. Also, I think it's safe to say there are spoilers for all episodes.
Updated: 02 Dec 2007; Published: 23 Nov 2007
John watches Rodney, his face animated, his other hand flailing around. But the left one remains still, just lying there next to his. He wonders what willpower Rodney is using to keep it from taking flight and joining the other in illustrating and underlining his story.
I've been enjoying these ficlets so much I've raced on to the next one but I wanted you to know just how wonderful I thought this line was! Very, very telling, and a unique insight.
Author's Response: Thank you so much! I appreciate your reading these and I\'m so glad you\'re enjoying them. You point out something that I really tried to do with all these stories and that is to take a small action, a look, a tone of voice and *show* what that meant between these two. Just the mere fact that Rodney talks with his hands but chose to leave one still, beside John\'s does say so much. I think there are so many canon moments just like this that could be taken to further conclusions and that was really my goal for the stories - to pick up on seemingly infinitesimal things and build their relationship on them. Thank you again.
Chapter 11: Day 11: Grace Under Pressure - Call it Even
This plan was foolproof, or wasn't it?
Updated: 20 Sep 2009; Published: 26 Apr 2008
I have to say I'm surprised to find they're in an established relationship but I should have realized, as it's in the notes for the fic! *oops*
Anyway, funny move to have them figure 'hey why not' and then discover there are consequences to sex while the ritual was going on.
Oh, I like the twist of 'three days, and at the end you can either 'I do' or 'I don't!'' It's a great set-up, because McShep readers will hope that they'll end up with 'I do' by the end but they've got so far to go!
Can't wait to see the rest!
Chapter 1: A Cunning Plan
When an old enemy surfaces to threaten Sheppard, Rodney finds himself as both a victim and a key player in a game that could cost Sheppard his life.
Updated: 11 May 2008; Published: 10 May 2008
I just wanted to for the record say how much I enjoyed this story! The plot was interesting and engaging, the character interactions were plausible and heartwarming, and I've never read a build-up to a relationship between John and Rodney I enjoyed as much as this one. You did such a great job of showing the tension and frustration that comes of wanting something you think you shouldn't have.
I 'you know, whatever' this story.
Author's Response: Lol, thank you sweetie. You\'ve been so kind and supportive - here and on LJ, I really \r\nappreciate it. \r\n\r\n*hugs * .xx.
There's no getting around it. It's an orgy.
Updated: 28 May 2008; Published: 28 May 2008
RODNEY TAKES NOTES! He's not ASHAMED of taking notes! Oh, I loved this so much. The paint on the participants' bodies was a sensual and lovely touch, and I've never read a story about *watching* an orgy rather than participating in it. That was a really creative take on the prompt and I... I'll be in my bunk.
*two thumbs up*
Author's Response: I knew I\'d never be able to write these characters IN an orgy, but I figured I could manage to write them watching one. Thanks for the great feedback!
Ronon watches him struggle to raise his hand to Sheppard's. John reaches out and takes it and suddenly Ronon realizes he's witnessing something private, so much so he wants to look away, but something about the scene makes it impossible.
Updated: 06 Jun 2008; Published: 06 Jun 2008
This is incredibly touching, all the more because it's from Ronon's PoV. His usual pragmatism being stripped away by what he sees--both physically and emotionally--strips away ours as well, by proxy. My favorite line was his baldly spoken, 'It's not fair,' as well as him implying that this attitude is not consistent with their being an advanced culture.
John crying and Teyla burying her head in Ronon's shoulder really touched me, too. This is beautiful in many ways, not all of them painful. I appreciate your trusting your readers by not showing a resolution, it makes the point of the story the observations rather than the injury itself and its outcome.
Author's Response: This was written with a theme of \"confession\" and I knew who would be confessing, I just didn\'t want to write a traditional McKay/Sheppard fic, even though it is about them. The idea I had was the comfort and support from an unlikely place and that led me to Ronon and Teyla (to a lesser degree) and the story kind of flowed from there. I know how some people feel about John crying. I feel the same way, but these were kind of choked sobs that there was just no way he could hold in any longer and knowing he\'s surrounded by two people who really care for him, I just did not see it as OOC. You make a great point about resolution. In certain instances, I like to leave things open to interpretation by the reader. I think it insults a savvy reader (and this fandom is loaded with them) to spell everything out and resolve every minor issue. The point of the story was Ronon\'s POV, hearing the confession and what that meant to him. I tried to let the same emotion that sent him tearing back to the wall drive the story and I really appreciate your lovely comments. So glad you enjoyed the story.