Penname: EmAnD [Contact]
Real name: Emily Member Since: 06 Sep 2008
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Summary: What lengths would you go to in order to save John Sheppard?

Categories: Ship Pairings > Sheppard/Other
Characters: John Sheppard, Original Character
Genres: Angst, Hurt Comfort, Pre-relationship
Warnings: Adult themes, Non-consensual
Chapters: 3 [Table of Contents]
Series: None

Word count: 10117; Completed: No
Updated: 29 Dec 2006; Published: 23 Oct 2006
Reviewer: CSD0484 (Signed)
22 Feb 2009
I really liked your story, i'm hoping that you will finish this soon.

Author's Response: Thank you so much for reading my story and taking the time to write a review. I\'m actually working on this right now. I feel like I have an ocean to write and I\'m doing it an eye dropper at a time, but it feels so good to be working on it. I hope to have the whole thing finished soon. Thanks again!
Chapter 1: Beginning

Summary: Sheppard/OMC Connor Davids is a shy, quiet scientist who keeps to himself but over time finds he's lonely. John Sheppard is the man everyone wants and everyone wants to be except all he wants is quiet understanding. Can he get that from the new Dr. Davids? Can they both overcome gender to be with each other?

This story is now complete.

Updated: 29 Oct 2010; Published: 04 Mar 2009
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
07 Jan 2010
Talk about what??? omg your gonna make me wait for weeks for the answer aren't you? Like I always say love the story, love Connor and I hope it never ends!!! Seriously thought it was my bday for a sec since this is the 2nd chapter this week but I think something went horribly wrong at the end there. :-( More, soon, please!! :-)
Chapter 1: Arrival
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
28 Jan 2010
OMG! u've done it to me again! my heart is in my throat!! please let connor be ok! and please update soon, am at the edge of my seat!

also i'm hoping Eric is ok too cause him getting hurt is just, no.

(biting nails nervously)

Author's Response: Working on the next chapter now... well, nowish. Lol. I\'ve got plans for Connor and Eric... I guess it depends on your definitions of okay. =) Cheers, Ace
Chapter 48: Parachutes
Reviewer: CSD0484 (Signed)
19 Sep 2009
omg this is a worst cliff hanger. more soon plz!!! i have to agree with Nurgette Connor is so real and honestly everytime he's angsty i just wanna hug him and never let go, though i know it would never be the same as john. i'm hoping the next chapter will be up quick like the last one though i doubt it. plz more soon, and i really hope this never ends because its amazing!!!
Chapter 1: Arrival
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
09 Mar 2010
Saw this posted last night and I had to stay up to read it. Totally tired all day cause of it but toally worth it!

I'm so glad that no one was permanently injured cause I swear my heart was gonna stop if it had taken longer to find out that Eric was alive.

oh and the scene with Eric and Rodney so cute!! Can totally see how Rodney is so head over heels. Dunno if you have time but would love more of them if possible. Oh and how Rodney likes Connor but wont admit it, so like him.

And I love it when Connor takes control, John totally whipped and loving it. (Squishes them in a big giant hug)

I'm so gonna have to read all of this over again after the end comes. Though I hope its not too soon cause like I said this story is awsome and should go on forever!

Author's Response: Hey! Sorry to make you so tired. I\'m glad it was worth it though. Actually, originally I was going to kill Eric off, but a ton of readers protested that idea, lol. So I let him live. Sorry to worry you. =) So right now, the plan for the rest of the story is -- Christmas interlude/chapter, Rodney/Eric interlude, chapter, epilogue. So there will be a bit more Rodney/Eric in the future. And I love Connor taking control too... all part of the \'becoming\' process. (And, oh yeah, John is completely whipped.) I\'m working on the reedits of the early chapters and hope to have them posted at the same time as the epilogue, I\'ve already got 5 up on ffnet, but I\'m waiting on my beta before posting more. I\'m so glad you\'re enjoying this. Every review means a lot to me, and even after all this time, it\'s hard to believe that people would read my stuff, so thank you for reading. =) Cheers, Ace
Chapter 49: Answers
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
18 Mar 2010
ok so I'm really sad about the 2.5 chaps left but I can totally see why this is starting to dwindle, the becoming part of the title is def getting close, i'm wondering how your gonna do it in the 2.5 chaps cause i think you might need one or two more but i'm pretty sure that just my short sightedness or wishful thinking. :-D

u know i was surprised that Rodney wasn't up waiting for Eric and back on his 'r u cheating on me?" rant and i really am hoping you address why he spends x-mas alone cause that one is nagging at me.

i'm hoping for and dreading more b/c its all coming to a close but plz let us know when everything has been edited to your liking b/c i really would like to go back and read it over.

Author's Response: I can say this... I like to leave a few things hanging. I don\'t like everything to wrap up nice and pretty with a shiny bow on top, because life doesn\'t work that way and with my stories I try to somewhat emulate life when possible. So there will be a little mystery here and there, I think. The last few chapters have already been outlined and I\'m actually working on two of them right now. There\'s one major issue (that plays into another major issue) left and that will be tackled in the chapter after the interlude, I\'m sure you could probably figure it out. The last chapter is an epilogue of sorts that will (hopefully) help give a little closure to those who need it. I can\'t make paragraphs, sorry so I do this ----- As for Rodney not waiting up for Eric... as confrontational as he is (and I think we can all agree he\'s very confrontational), I think sometimes there are things you don\'t want to wait up for, things you don\'t want confirmed. Things that scare us and make us want to sleep instead of facing them. ----- The reason Eric spends the holiday alone was inferred/intimated at. I tried to make it subtle but I never know what is subtle enough. There\'s no current plan to include it in another chapter so I can just tell you here, what I imagined for him. It\'s quite dark, as a warning, which is partly why I didn\'t come right out and say it. As a child he spent the day by himself, his father would not have celebrated the holiday and in fact probably beat him on it, so Eric learned to just lock himself away from the world. ---- I\'m not sure when I\'ll be able to get to more chapters, my computer recently died and while all my files are backed up it is a bit of a pain to keep hooking up my external. So there\'s a good chance BCD will be finished before all of the re-edits are finished, so I\'m not sure exactly how I would let you know, I can change the summary of BCD but I\'m not sure if that would help since I\'m not quite sure how this site works. Cheers, Ace
Chapter 50: Concupiscent
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
28 Mar 2010
Ok so I totally willed this post into existence cause when I came on here I was like BCD BCD! ha ha Perfect, though, now I want more Rodney and Eric. I'm hoping for a story with just Rodney and Eric instead of the interludes but its just wishful thinking. They are so cute together.

I guess I just want to know what it would be like for them once Eric finishes school and how things change for him since Rodney is so much older and its becoming more obvious. Also how it would be for him when Rodney died, cause I refuse to entertain a universe where John/Connor and Rodney/Eric die in any way other than natural. Yea I know, glass is half full, but if you can't have happy endings in fics than where can you have them? :-) Great as always.

Author's Response: You totally have psychic powers (except that this post has been on my LJ for six days...=/ Sorry.) Lol, and I just can\'t write anymore Rodney/Eric. Gah. They\'re so hard to write. Well, not Eric since he\'s mine and I can make him do whatever I want, but Rodney... it gets frustrating.......Well I\'m totally planning on doing the snippets of life after BCD, so there\'s definitely a chance you\'ll get to see it all. I\'m not sure I could go around killing off my babies, so we\'ll have to see where it ends, lol.....I think between men the age difference isn\'t as pronounced as it would be between a man and a woman (just my personal thoughts), but the age difference IS significant and it definitely plays a part in their relationship. John, Rodney and Eric (Connor to some extent) have some of the most dangerous jobs in the universe, haha, the chances of them not dying a natural death grow slimmer everyday. Lol. But hope does spring eternal...Glad you liked it. Cheers, Ace
Chapter 51: Good Enough
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
10 May 2010
ok so i gotta say i'm sad that BCSD has ended especially cause there are so many stories that you could totally write, which i'm hoping in the future you will. (puppy dog eyes)

But I can see how he has become who he is going to be and for Connor there really won't be drastic changes for him just the happy changes that we all go through because of time. Also I love how they came out to their team and Jim's reaction was great especially the "Please don't tell me you've been sleeping with Jackson this whole time." Hilarious!

Also I gotta say on your behalf, that guy who basically bashed you is such a du***. i hate ppl who do that; if they can't appreciate a fic or it didn't go they wanted, then don't comment especially b/c this is someone's hobby, and most ppl would have stopped ages ago and this would have just been another WIP. Sorry just had to say that cause there was like, no constructive anything and it irked the hell out of me and no author, especially you, deserves that kinda crap. (totally sound like I have a girl crush on you, ha ha, though if you didn't write such great fics I wouldn't be obsessing over them so much)

Just wanted to let you know that this is a great fic and, I know that others will agree with me, we are ecstatic that you finished, even if its not a nice pretty bow, which is not real life.

I like how you have left it open so you can revisit this when you would like or get nostalgic. (secretly hopes it will be soon)

Totally looking forward to your next fic whatever it may be. :-)

Author's Response: I\'ve got to say that it\'s funny you called it BCSD because that\'s the name of the sequel. =) Although the B is a different word... =) And the many stories I could write will hopefully be in there. I\'ve already kinda got one in mind, but unfortunately I\'m just too busy to sit down and get it out. =/ -------------- And yay! You got it, the whole becoming thing. I had hoped at the end he would still be Connor, the Connor John fell in love with, still recognizable. So I\'m glad you noticed that. Heh, and yay! for loving Jim\'s reaction. I had fun with that one. =) ----------------- And thank you, I appreciate your support. I can understand that he would have wanted more closure, I guess I just had nothing to offer. It\'s hard as a writer to have someone express disappointment or unfulfillment, but it comes with the territory I suppose. But thank you for supporting me and standing up for me. It is very appreciated. =) ---------- I\'m ecstatic that I finished too, but I always knew I would. At the beginning, when I started, I promised myself that whatever happened, I would finish this fic. I hated all those author\'s who left things hanging. I understand that there\'s real life, but once you start something like this, there\'s also a commitment to the readers. ----- Lol. I\'m already nostalgic and thinking things up for the sequel. Unfortunately I\'m so dang busy right now I barely have time to reply to these reviews, something else I promised myself I would do. So I don\'t know when I\'ll get to it. ---- I\'m working on getting Words out (the next in the Delicate series) and I\'m WAY behind on my NCIS LA fic, lol, so I\'m playing catch-up there for a while too. Other than that... who knows? The must kinda has a life of its own. Thank you so much for your support through this fic, it really means a lot. Thanks for reading. Cheers, Ace
Chapter 53: Never Think
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
27 Apr 2010
ok so i totally read this on ur LJ when you first posted but figured you'd have it go through a beta b4 you posted n e where else so i didnt comment, clearly i was wrong.

I like how their relationship has become, looking back you can totally see that this is where they were headed.

Also, it would be nice if in the future you would let me live in my delusions of psychic abilities. Though if you hadn't it would have been a while before I read this so I guess i'm kinda glad you did.

See you in the next chapter!

Author's Response: Lol, well there\'s only one chapter left of this story to test your psychic abilities on. Could still happen. ;) But I haven\'t been able to get a hold of my beta, and it was going on over a week, so I thought I would post anyways and then just repost. =/ And thank you, I do like that gift of hindsight, when you\'re able to see where things are headed. =) Cheers, Ace
Chapter 52: All I Need
Filigreed by Kitten [NC-17]
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Summary: AU- Offshoot to Auburn's incredible "In the City of Seven Walls" Rodney overdoses and dies on Baratha, leaving John slowly spiraling out of control under the Haralim's thumb.

Categories: Slash Pairings > McKay/Sheppard
Characters: Rodney McKay
Genres: Angst, AU - Alternate Universe, Drama
Warnings: Adult themes, Character death, Non-consensual
Chapters: 1 [Table of Contents]
Series: None

Word count: 5075; Completed: No
Updated: 09 Dec 2009; Published: 10 Nov 2009
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
09 Dec 2009
omg I wanna cry! Poor John!! Amazing story though, you can so easy see how he's closed in on himself and be there with him. I want to know what happends but I'm not sure if I can read more without crying.
Chapter 1: Loss

Summary: A series of difficult firsts for Rodney.

Categories: Slash Pairings > McKay/Sheppard
Characters: John Sheppard, Rodney McKay, Ronon Dex, Teyla Emmagan
Genres: Angst, Character Study, First Time, Hurt Comfort, Team
Warnings: None
Chapters: 1 [Table of Contents]
Series: None

Word count: 3910; Completed: Yes
Updated: 18 Dec 2009; Published: 16 Dec 2009
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
18 Dec 2009
This was absolutly perfect!!!
Chapter 1: Chapter 1
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Summary: *Mild SLASH* Tag to Common Ground. Minor Sheppard character study with Ronon/Lorne.

It wasn't that either of them were in love with Sheppard. Evan was fairly sure he wasn't and was almost as sure that Ronon wasn't. It was... something else, something deeper that made them want to protect Sheppard. A profound sense of duty, perhaps.

Updated: 11 Jan 2010; Published: 11 Jan 2010
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
12 Jan 2010
You know even though I love BCD, I'm always hesitant to read more of your stuff mainly cause the pairings are rare and they don't pique my interest at all, but I always click and read cause its your writing and its always awesome which I really need to remember when you post stuff.

Like I said you're an amazing writer! Great fic!

Author's Response: Thanks! I\'m glad you liked it. =)\r\n\r\nHonestly, I\'ve never even read a Lorne/Ronon fic and have no idea why I wrote one now. I seem to be hitting all the rare/weird pairings in the SGA slash genre. I love McShep, but for some reason I just can\'t write one. Maybe after I\'ve gone through every other pairing, lol. \r\n\r\nCheers, \r\nAce\r\n\r\n
Chapter 1: Petrichor

Summary: *Mild SLASH* Rodney McKay is determined to track down John Sheppard and have all the awesome gay sex he's entitled to. Rodney figures they're practically dating already.

Categories: Crossovers > Slash Pairings, Slash Pairings > Sheppard/Other
Characters: John Sheppard, Original Character, Rodney McKay, Ronon Dex, Teyla Emmagan
Genres: Angst, Character Study, Friendship, Pre-relationship, Pre-slash
Warnings: None
Chapters: 1 [Table of Contents]
Series: None

Word count: 3698; Completed: Yes
Updated: 14 Jan 2010; Published: 14 Jan 2010
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
14 Jan 2010
poor Rodney!! :-( i'm sure this wont happen but i'm hoping one day you write a McShep cause you keep torturing Rodney in ur fics :-(

Loved the fic, would love to see how things go with Shep/Mitchell and McKay/Bryce

Author's Response: I do love McShep! I promise I do! Just for some reason, everytime I sit down to write it it comes out as something else. Usually as Sheppard/some rare other character. Lol. I feel like I\'ll hit them all before ever getting to McShep, but I would love to write one some day!
Chapter 1: Open Your Eyes
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Summary: *Mild SLASH* Sheppard/Mitchell.

John had so easily accepted McKay, even pursued him. It irked Cam a little because John wouldn't give him the time of day but there he was chasing McKay. For a while Cam had thought John had a crush on the other man. But now he was pretty sure that wasn't the case. Plus, Daniel had said there was nothing going on there and Cam believed him, for the most part.

The thing about John that made Cam wonder the most--he was pretty emotionless. Cam had seen maybe, maybe two smiles grace his lips. He'd never seen John laugh. He'd never seen John get angry. He'd really never seen John as anything other than perfectly restrained. To most he probably appeared laid-back and easy-going. To Cam he seemed permanently broken.

Updated: 19 Jan 2010; Published: 19 Jan 2010
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
20 Jan 2010
So good there are no words!

Author's Response: Lol, thanks. =)
Chapter 1: Sing To Me
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Summary: Purple hyacinths mean "please forgive me" in the language of flowers. Lavender roses mean "love at first sight". AU in which John never joined the Air Force, but Cam's career unfolded exactly as it did in canon.

Categories: Crossovers > Slash Pairings, Slash Pairings > Mitchell/Sheppard
Characters: Cameron Mitchell, John Sheppard
Genres: Angst, AU - Alternate Universe, Romance, Series
Warnings: None
Chapters: 1 [Table of Contents]
Series: Tour of Europe

Word count: 2376; Completed: Yes
Updated: 31 Jan 2010; Published: 30 Jan 2010
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
01 Feb 2010
This is so cute. More soon please. Also, maybe a prequel?
Chapter 1: Chapter 1
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Summary: Sequel to Sing To Me--*Mild SLASH* Sheppard/Mitchell.

He had waited on introducing John to his mom because Cam knew his mom could be a little... overwhelming. She was a wonderful lady but sometimes a little strict and too honest and just a bit brazen. Exactly the kind of person who would make John nervous. Cam hadn't explained about John's past to his mom, he kept the promise he'd made to General Mason and hadn't told anybody. Therefore Cam's mom only knew some of the pieces to the puzzle that was John Mason.

Cam was very afraid that his mom wouldn't like John. To most John probably seemed cold and unfeeling. He wasn't very affectionate and when he wasn't on duty, John didn't speak very loudly. She would be there for such a short time that Cam didn't think it was long enough for her to accurately gauge the depth of John's feelings for Cam. Cam wasn't sure he'd accurately gauged the depth of John's feelings.

Updated: 31 Jan 2010; Published: 31 Jan 2010
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
01 Feb 2010
Love this!! I was so afraid that Cam's mom would learn about John's past in a horrible, tramatizing for John, way. I'm glad you didn't go that way.

And I love McLorne, don't see enough of those, they are so cute together cause we know that McKay annoys the crap out of Lorne which makes them being together so much fun and interesting.

Author's Response: Hey, thanks. =) And nope, never crossed my mind to have her find out in a horrible way. I couldn\'t do that to John. Yay, I\'m glad you liked the McLorne. i was wary of including it, and I have no idea where it came from as I don\'t think I\'ve even ever read one, but it just sorta fell out of the sky so I put em in. Cheers, Ace
Chapter 1: The Only One

Summary: *SLASH* Sheppard/Parrish

John wasn't really sure why he was walking down to the botany labs. It probably had something to do with Lorne and his stories about the crazy botanist on his team. Well, Lorne didn't actually say Parrish was crazy, that was something John took away from their conversations. And by conversations John definitely meant Lorne's retellings of the crazy shit that happened to his team.

Categories: Slash Pairings > Sheppard/Other
Characters: John Sheppard, Major Lorne, Other
Genres: First Time, Friendship, Pre-relationship, Pre-slash, Romance
Warnings: None
Chapters: 1 [Table of Contents]
Series: None

Word count: 9670; Completed: Yes
Updated: 07 Feb 2010; Published: 07 Feb 2010
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
17 Feb 2010
omg! so cute! love, love, love!!! can totally see John's face light up at the last sentence. (ok so maybe that was my face) :-)

Author's Response: Hehe. Glad you like it. =) i can see John\'s face light up too. (it would probably be weird to try and picture yours, lol). Cheers, Ace
Chapter 1: Mediocre Passions
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Summary: Sequel to The Only One--*Mild SLASH* Sheppard/Mitchell.

Since meeting John, or more accurately meeting John's parents, Cam had read more books on surviving abuse then anyone should ever have to read. He hid them in his office at work so that John wouldn't see them. Daniel knew about them because he would borrow them when Cam finished. Even McKay, with all his awkwardness, would hand Cam back a book that Daniel had finished and avoid eye contact before leaving the room.

Most of the pages had been hard to read. John was painfully a classic case of abuse. With every line Cam could see part of his husband. Sometimes he was amazed that John turned out as well as he did. Cam figured some of that was probably due to Patty and General Mason. The rest of it was because John was amazing.

Updated: 02 Mar 2010; Published: 02 Mar 2010
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
05 Mar 2010
ok so i totally read this the other day like i said but didnt have time to review properly so here goes....

Awsome! i love how you dont give quick fixes to john's problem cause we all know in real life it doesn't work that way but you still move the characters fwd which is really great cause you can see them all growing and changing through out.

also at times i had a hard time beliving that cam would stay with john dispite his major issues but then i read his point of view of what's going and its just right and they work so well.

i really hope you keep going cause i really wanna see where you land eventually. secretly i hope it ends up with john and cam being able to sleep in the same bed and do a lil more then kissing. i think that last part is probably a strech but def sharing a bed. (keeping my fingers crossed)

Author's Response: Hey, I\'m glad you like it. You\'re totally right and that\'s totally what I\'m going for--in life there really aren\'t quick fixes for people like John and sometimes, sadly enough, there just aren\'t fixes at all. But i do believe that we\'re constantly changing, whether we see it or not, and that the people around us change us, no matter how small their presence is in our life. ---- I can\'t make spaces between paragraphs, sorry, so this will have to do ---- I think, regarding finding t hard to believe that Cam would stay with John, that sometimes love, real love--not the I love you for a few minutes or months or years, but real honest to God forever, neverending love--drives us in ways that we can\'t even imagine. And that how Cam loves John. It\'s not a passing fancy or a quick shag, it\'s an \'I want to spend the rest of my life washing your feet\' kind of thing. If that makes any sense. He\'s just so completely in love with John that John\'s issues are nothing compared to John. ---- You\'ll be the third person I\'ve told, but I am currently working on a sequel. I\'m not sure when I\'ll be finished with it, I\'m working on it in between BCD chapters. Lol, I\'m not sure there will be \'a lil more then kissing\' but we\'ll see. I never really plan it out all that much, I just have a rough idea of what I want to cover and where I want to go. Thanks for coming back and reviewing, Cheers, Ace
Chapter 1: Neverland
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
03 Mar 2010
How dare you post a new story when I dont have time to read it? :-) can't wait to get some time to read it today cause otherwise my days not gonna be complete but unfortanatly I actually have to go get ready for work :-( damn my dependency on a job to pay bills!

P.S. love this series and i have to agree with madwhiskey on all accounts.

Author's Response: Hey Em, sorry? Lol. Work is important! (And I, too, wish it weren\'t. Sigh. Where are the rich spouses when you need them?) Glad you\'re enjoying the series. Cheers, Ace
Chapter 1: Neverland
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Summary: For skidmo_fic's challenge on LJ: 50 Ways to Leave Your Lover; #20 with flowers. Slash. Sheppard/?

John Sheppard brought him flowers.

Categories: Slash Pairings > Sheppard/Other
Characters: John Sheppard
Genres: Episode Related
Warnings: Character death
Chapters: 1 [Table of Contents]
Series: None

Word count: 1301; Completed: Yes
Updated: 24 Apr 2010; Published: 24 Apr 2010
Reviewer: EmAnD (Signed)
25 Apr 2010
omg :*( When I first started reading this I wanted to know who it was but now it doesn't matter and thats the first time I've read a ? character and not cared. Beautiful.

Author's Response: Thank you. It\'s my first time writing a ? character and I thought I\'d see what happens if I left it up to the reader. =) I\'m glad you liked it. Cheers, Ace
Chapter 1: With Flowers