SGA Arlessiar [Contact
07 Jun 2005
The Atlantis crew fear McKay's genius has slipped into insanity. Are their worst fears realised, or is there something sinister at work?
Updated: 19 Jun 2005; Published: 03 Apr 2005
I have to admit that I never left a review for you before, although I followed this story since chapter 16 - I read everything up to that in one long night at ff.net. But I never managed to review because real life is very demanding. But now that this fantastic story is over I just have to say some things.
You built an story that was so interesting and well thought out that I was glued to the screen whenever I saw an update! One thing is sure: This story really killed me emotionally. I remember sitting at the computer many times, chewing my nails and commenting loudly what I read, sometimes smiling, sometimes unbelieving, sometimes crying. Especially chapter 23 was a rollercoaster ride, seldom have I been more agitated when reading, sometimes I thought I couldn’t even go on. The atmosphere was so intense, only a few sentences of the characters were enough to turn me into a sobbing wreck! :)
You have a fantastic way of writing. You nailed the characters, their thoughts and fears, the friendship, the mistrust, the anger, and you really got me believing Rodney is schizophrenic (and I hated that diagnosis as much as Sheppard). You managed to give appropriate attention to all the characters, which supported the atmosphere immensely, and even Kezan wasn’t just a boring stereotypical “bad guy” to be hated and wiped out, but someone one could even pity. But since we cannot lose Rodney, he had to leave! And now Rodney has to deal with what happened, but he will mend, and that is a wonderful end for this story.
So, I’m already looking forward to whatever jewel is next up your sleeve. You’re a great writer! Bye, A.
Author's Response: Wow! I love getting long, thoughtful feedback like this - thank you so much for taking the time to leave it. I'm very glad you enjoyed it, thank you!
Chapter 36: Back Together Again (Put Me)
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Updated: 31 Dec 1969; Published: 31 Dec 1969
Oh wow, the last sentence of chapter five nearly made me cry! It seems that deep inside Rodney obviously doesn't really want to share Carson. And the rather cruel way he treated John (while Carson was caught in bliss), who obeyed so willingly, was hard to read, although I can't blame Rodney for what he must feel. Poor John. I am curious how the story will go on!
Author's Response: Yes, it was sad. Yes, it was cruel. Yes, I'm breaking the woobie... and Yes, you all clamor for more. ;) I must be doing something right... ^_^
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Updated: 31 Dec 1969; Published: 31 Dec 1969
The fourth chapter already, and I'm always excited when I see an update of this story and it's the first thing I have to read then!
I like it that you show the fact that not everybody is open-minded when it comes to homosexuality and that such personal issues can come between a friendship. There are many Atlantis stories in which everyone is completely fine with a gay couple. That's of course a good way to see things, but I don't think it reflects reality. I like it that your story deals with the aspect of disapproval.
And now I'm really curious to see where the story is going, now that Rodney has to set records in climbing and his mates are watching and believing in him!
Author's Response: I was weary of this approach but I wanted to try a different angle and see where it takes me. Thanks for the encouragement.
Vacation? One week without update? Why do you do this to me? ;)
Well, seems I'm the only one here who doesn't want John to have fallen for Rodney. I like it that he mourns for the friendship they had and is trying to come to terms with the fact that he has destroyed that (I liked it how sad he was when Teyla and Ford told him that there are things Rodney doesn't want him to know anymore). The conflict between his prejudices and his will to have a friendship with Rodney again is very interesting.
I'm very impressed by Rodney and his endurance. He does that for the life of his friends, and that keeps him going. Poor lad, I hope Carson will care for him in every way possible after that ordeal!
Have a nice vacation! Bye, A.
Hi! I'm sorry, I made a stupid mistake and submitted my latest review to the first chapter and not to the seventh as I intended to!
Nonetheless, have a nice vacation and I hope you'll return with many good ideas for the next chapters! Can't wait! A.
Author's Response: Thank you. :) I'll see you in a week and I promise to post the day I get back. C
Oh, you're back! How was the vacation?
Very good new chapter, I was already looking forward to it. It's still a little hard for me to understand why the people on this planet actually do what they do to complete strangers and what they gain personally with that, but I think it's interesting to see that they try to achieve something good (help the team becoming a team again) via something bad (Rodney's ordeal). They want to help, but for this Rodney has to suffer, and if he doesn't follow orders, the life or health of his mates is at stake, while at the same time he and his mates are the very people for which all of this should have a benefit. Strange but fascinating situation! Rodney must be really confused, the poor, tortured boy!
Author's Response: The next chapter should provide some enlightenment about the inner thoughts of all. Stay tuned for more.
Yeah, an update! Wonderful! And it answers some questions. I liked how you made Teyla and Aiden realize that they accepted Rodney more when he tried to become more like them. And I really, really loved how you explained Sheppard's strange behavior. It's a good and complex idea you had there and not as easy as him also being in love with Rodney. Speaking of Rodney: What are you doing to him? ;) Poor guy! I hope he'll be alright soon!
Author's Response: I was afraid it wouldn't come across to the reader, but it seems I've managed to get at least some of it on paper. We'll see if I can keep on in that vein. Thanks for reading.
OMG! Don't stop! Go on! You are killing me right now, you know that? Poor Rodney, now that Sheppard decided for him he must think that his suffering was in vain and that he will have to live forever with the guilt for what they might do to Sheppard. Please, go on soon, I need to know what happens next! And I can't wait for the c part of this h/c! :) Bye, A.
Author's Response: I promise not to make you wait too long. Couple days and I'll try to get another post to you. Thanks for enjoying.
An especially good chapter with much insight into Rodney's thoughts and feelings, and I can't blame him for any of those feelings he has. He feels betrayed, his efforts diminished, and also guilty until he learns that nothing happened to Sheppard. I liked how he swept the box off the cot, and the way he is stumbling to the gate on his own feet. And now, Carson to the rescue! What more could I want in this already wonderful story?
Author's Response: for it to be over...oh wait that's my wish. :)
Don't have much time for a review today, so I'll just say "Yay Carson!" and tell you how glad I am that they are back on Atlantis now. Which means some things will have to be sorted out soon. Carson started already! :) Great as always, Bye, A.
Author's Response: Thanks for taking the time. Always love to hear from you.
Another chapter! *dances*
I'm so happy that Carson didn't hit Sheppard a second time but got his rage under control instead, because I think that is more like Carson. It's lovely how he cares for Rodney and nice to see that neither Rodney nor Carson need many words when they are together, being content with each other's presence and a light touch.
That Shep/the team went against Rodney's wishes and visited him seems a little out of character to me, although you explained that S. feels the need to tell Rodney the reasons for his behaviour. But this needs time and can’t be done so soon and for sure not easily, and I thought he/the team would normally understand that. But maybe the strain of the last months and the last mission is an explanation for that. It seems as if they want to have an absolution, and I loved Rodney’s chilly reaction to that and his refusal to acknowledge the apologies - this is not a question of forgive and forget but of regaining trust, and he needs time to heal in every meaning of the word. You made that very clear and I like that! Bye, A.
Yeah, Carson comfort! I've been looking forward to that for a long time, and now it's there and you did a wonderful job writing it! There were so many great moments between the two of them in this chapter, and I loved how very good you managed to keep them in character until the very last sentence of the chapter! Bye, A.
Great as always! May it be the scene with Sheppard or the scene with Teyla, it was heartbreaking to see how everyone suffers but isn't able to fix things again. And your Zelenka is just wonderful! Full of mischief, but behaving oh so innocent... :)
Author's Response: I'm happy that the Zelenka thing worked. I haven't written him much, but he has a way of growing on you.
Oh my, Rodney is hurt AGAIN? Carson will throw his hands up in disbelief and never let him go off-world again! :)
But it's a good thing that Rodney and John got to talk, you did this difficult scene very well.
And so it ends. I'll really miss it not to find a new chapter of this wonderful story when I come to this site. Sadly I didn't have time to leave a review for the last chapters, but now that the story is finished I just have to tell you how much I enjoyed every single chapter! You did a wonderful job in describing the "journey" all the characters had to make to find their place and to figure out what they mean to each other. And especially I liked the subtle way in which you described the relationship of Rodney and Carson. Their moments together were just heartwarming and said so much about their love for each other.
I hope to read a new story from you one day! Bye, Arlessiar
Summary: If he could just make the perfect chain, then everything would be alright, everything would be like it was.
Updated: 20 Nov 2005; Published: 13 Jun 2005
Wow, this is really sad, and listening to sad music while reading it definitely makes you depressed! ;)
I love your style - you have a nearly poetic way of writing with many heartbreaking sentences especially at the end of a paragraph.
And the sentence "notes that are now as meaningless to him as Arabic" made me shiver. I can imagine him sitting there with the knowledge that this once made sense and meant a lot to him. This was stolen from him, they violated his mind, and you managed to express all the desperation of the situation in one simple sentence!
I also like that there aren't too many detailed information revealed yet about what happened and what's up with John and him, that gives the story a good atmosphere!
Love it! Bye, A.
No summary provided. Dark fic, including non-con and partner rape.
Updated: 13 Jun 2005; Published: 13 Jun 2005
That was really an intense and sad but nonetheless really touching and wonderful story! I can't imagine how Rodney must feel like at the end and how hard it must be to go on after so many people know what you did, no matter what the reason for that was. And John is broken now, after he did everything he thought he had to do to help and to reach Rodney, even if that meant to sacrifice himself and his pride and free will. BTW, the scenes in which Rodney threatened to hurt himself really haunted me. In a different way I have a personal experience with threats similar to Rodney's, and I know how much blackmailing someone with the feelings he has for you hurts and how cruel and violating it is.
It's sad but perfectly understandable that Rodney and John can't go on as a couple after that. It seems as if the old feelings are still there in both of them, but the crack between them that Rodney's actions have caused is too wide to overcome. Did I already say that this story is sad? :) I like it very much. It's very well written! Bye, A.
Sometimes the edge grabs you and pulls you over.
Updated: 14 Jun 2005; Published: 14 Jun 2005
I have to attend a course in university in half an hour and it's your fault that I'll be thinking about John and Rodney kissing while balancing on a small window frame the whole time! ;)
Funny and cute!
Author's Response: Thank you! I had fun with this one, I'm glad you did, too!
It's at night when the weariness hits. Sequel now added.
Updated: 19 Jun 2005; Published: 16 Jun 2005
Suffering from a strep throat and a bad cough myself at the moment this is really the perfect story for me! I can feel with everyone on Atlantis. And of course with the poor, hardworking, sick and tired Scottish lad! I'd like to care for him!
Seriously, this is really a nice and well written glimpse into Carson's life on Atlantis. You picture him and his attentiveness and his sense of duty perfectly. I like it very much! Bye, A.
Now, where was my chamomile tea again...
John could talk her into just about anything.
Updated: 17 Jun 2005; Published: 17 Jun 2005
That was sweet, and you described everything very vividly. The sand under her toes, the heat...
I loved the fact that they weren't just doing it but are waiting a little longer, taking each others hand as a sign that there is more between them. And how John convinces Liz that "this" isn't something to think about too rational but to feel instead.
Chapter 1: Taking the Plunge